Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Becoming a Gandma

 Today I became a Grandma and my husband became a Grandpa... We are going to be called Grammy K and Poppy. :)  What a day.... 2 weeks of contractions on and off.. and she finally went in on the 11 th at 2 in the morning.  She  her water was broken at 7 and she was  given an epidural at 10 and had the baby at 1:59 in the afternoon... pushing only for a half hour.

It was amazing. I can't wait to get home and download all the videos and pictures we took of this beautiful and adorable baby.  She is my name sake. Zoey Karine :) She weighted 7'14 and 19 inches long.

She has hair... wavy curly hair and its reddish :) strawberry blond. Just beautiful and it was the first thing we saw as she was crowning :)

All day I was emotional.  It is so different to watch your children give birth.  To see them hurt... it is really hard.  Then also the reality of mortal slaps you in the face and you realize you are going to be doing new territory... BECOMING A GRANDPARENT and a new phase in your life... CRAZY!!!   And to be honest scary...because .. life went so fast by as a parent.... and now a grandparent... soon I will be in a hospital wearing diapers and forgetting who I am.... not a pleasant thought...

So I have to just stop thinking like that and start enjoying the now... be excited about all the new little adventures that are going to be happening. All the cuddles and hugs....kisses and I love yous.... so neat to think I get that.

 I want to add that there is something very beautiful about watching a child come into this world. I really believe its when Heaven meets up on earth.... the veil can be thin to those with the gift and I believe that many angels attend.... the glorious day of a another child gaining a body and entering into the world :)    Like the help cross them over and watch as the child draws in that first breath of air.... claiming mortality and their beautiful blessed body they were given for this life here on earth.  
Today I felt such things or maybe I imagined it...either way... It comforted me to think that my Father, sister, brother, grandparents and many others that are in heaven... were there. :) The room FELT FULL.

I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for the safe arrival of our beautiful Zoey and for blessing Virginia with strength to endure this crown of motherhood.  All is well...

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Time on my hands

 I have been blessed with being left with my very pregnant daughter, in her time of need having her first child. I will be here for two weeks. That is a huge sacrifice for my family. My Mother has flown in to help take care of my other 7 children.  My husband has taken off several days from work to ensure my Mother has all the schedules down, which he has had to learn himself.   He has done an amazing job.
We all came down last weekend... we really thought my oldest was in labor. But she ended up being sent home from the hospital.  Poor thing that is so hard too.

When my family left us Sunday to drive back home 5 hours away...they cried... I did not expect such tears from some of them. In a way it made me feel so loved....and in another way I felt so guilty.  My son that we adopted CRIED which is huge.... I have waited 2 years for him to show more attachment to us.... in this way...he cried, and hugged me and expressed with words that he will miss me. THAT BROUGHT ME TO TEARS! Oh how thankful I am that he is connecting...that he feels my love and that he is realizing we are his family.
This TIME that I have been blessed with has been so needed and wonderful.  I have caught up on much needed rest. I have been able to read my scriptures and study them as I have strived to do without any real interruptions.... I have even been able to watch a movie and get into it.   Its been so nice....but even with all that I miss my family and wonderful rich blessed life of crazy chaos. :)

I have decided to take this time and help my daughter as much as possible. I cleaned her house yesterday from top to bottom.Litterally. :) and put dinner on. I am thinking I will stock her fridge with freezer meals.   I want to read more things of spiritual nature and spend free time wisely growing even more spiritaully and looking up parenting things....and how to better improve myself and our family. I will write down a new goal and schedule.   I am really excited to get started with this.

I know that the Lord provides for us. He always has.... and I love the faith my oldest daughter has...her out look on life and her dedication to the lord. She prays every morning and night... reads her scriptures. Her and husband run their home the way I  have strived to but they seem to do a better job with it than I do.  I am so proud of her and thankful for her.  I love all my children and just want to give them all the most important things in life.... which is to know who they are.... that they are strong...that anything is possible with the Lord by their side. I want them to grow up knowing what it means to have a family and how THEY always come first in life.....  that sacrafice and trials keep us humble and close to god.  That they make us stronger and the people HE wants and needs us to become.      As I struggle as a mother to find ways to comfort my children when they are going through trials I am finding great love and comfort as well.
Well I am going to get busy with my day. This free time is precious to me. I am thankful for it. I can sit and really ponder my life...where it is, what I want more to do with it ... how to improve  it and what I can change.