MOTHERHOOD

Motherhood is an adventure all in its own....
You get pregnant... You can't wait to hold this child... love this child .... then the child is born.... You can't wait to sleep again..... then they start to crawl and get into everything.... from crawling to walking to running getting into everything and you can't wait for them to stop getting into everything or putting everything in their mouths.... then you bring more children into the family... You can't wait for the children to stop bickering between themselves... and get along.... then school starts and you wonder where did the time go? Where are your BABIES? then summer comes and you think... HURRY UP SCHOOL... LETS GET THEM TO SCHOOL..... and you think you will enjoy the break... .then that break comes and you are clueless as to what to do with yourself because you were so use to the kids being home.... then middle school comes... and wow are they changing into young adults and maturing and hormones... *JOY* and you think..... where did my little child go? She/He are really growing up.... Then Highschool happens and dating.... OIY! You were totally not ready for all the drama that usually comes with highschool and dating and boys/girls... so on and so forth... then they graduate... and you think? WHAT? HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? Then they go off to college and you are left with a room filled with their stuff.... but they are not there...Its like they are dead but they aren't.... and the pain is very real.... and you wonder how you will stop texting them a thousand times or calling them so many times a day just to hear their voice and that they are ok...because... YOU STILL WORRY... then they come home and say... GUESS WHAT.....*DRUM ROLL PLEASE* I AM GETTING MARRIED.... and you get excited and think WOW! THIS IS GONNA BE SO WONDERFUL...and that day comes.... and SLAPS YOU IN THE FACE as you WATCH YOUR BABY GET MARRIED! And million thoughts come back into your mind about life and how fast it went by even when you thought at times it was taking forever... and how UNPREPARED YOU ARE TO REALLY LET GO! Its time for them to fly .... make their own life .... choose for themselves.... make mistakes *AS WE ALL DO * and its so hard to not say anything... to not step in and give your advice that you so lovingly want to do because you truly do love them and only want whats best for them...but then if you do... they will be upset that your controlling them or not allowing them to be grownups... *which yeah... its true if you want to look at it that way* and then.... you become GRANDPARENTS!!!!! Best thing EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and you can hold that baby and see your child in that baby... and its like you didn't loose anything after all... just gained more But at the same time.... you do miss... all those years... and you wonder how you will go on...without these special people in your life... DAILY IN YOUR LIFE.... like when they were yours... little and needing you... and your heart hurts... a little... and yet its filled with joy because its God's plan.... I don't know how I will do this 6 more times.... its so hard and the first two... sure have had to be the guinea pigs for our family. Being a Mother is an adventure. I asked my Mom how she did it... and at age 70 with tears rolling down her face...she replied..."ITS HARD BUT YOU DO IT" I hope I am just surrounded with a zillion grandbabies to keep me so busy... I won't miss everything else.