Things are better...

So I got a text from a sweet friend last night who had read my blog.   I was thankful for her concern and thought I better catch things up on here.  SO things have calmed down. They got pretty heated for a couple days and we all vented and said our peace... then we calmed down and said sorry and worked it all out. I think now SHE knows we love her and are trying to help. Not attacking and not wanting to upset them.
Things seem more positive for them too.... they are figuring it all out and what they need to do .... have a plan and are going back to Rexburg in Oct. 
I think this was all meant to happen.  I think we have all learned something from this.  I think that we have worked thru the hard times and that we are all going to be ok.  I have been able to see it as blessings... I hope they have too.  We have gotten to know each other so much better. We have spent time with our grandbaby... who is growing so fast.  Even though money is tighter than its ever been before....  its been a blessing. A true blessing to say I have my family all under one roof.
I have learned patience in ways I didn't know I needed lol.  I have learned to truly give freely and love unconditionally in ways I didn't know I needed to. It was a good look at myself. I realized I was a little selfish ... I didn't think I was...but thru it all too, I have also been able to see a different side to my mother in law... who I have struggled with all my married life.  It has brought me to her grave, asking her for forgiveness for my ignorance and I think she is at peace with this since. I feel her now.... I feel her spirit.  Which I didn't before. I am sure I blocked her. It is nice to know that SHE AND I ARE OK NOW TOO! A lot of healing in that one area alone in my life.

So things are good. Someone * I think it was Kalene and Kyle* brought us apples yesterday and left them on our front door. We had not had fruit in a while. with 12 people here... a bag is like one days of fruit. We try to be sparingly but it can only go so far with this many.  We have been eating some interesting meals too. My food storage is dwindling. I do have anxiety over how will I ever rebuild it up ... and my pantry is looking emptier every day.  But... the blessing is we have food. We have been fed, roofed and together ;) All that really is the only thing that matters.